So yah that thing happened

Beginning of February our lives changed and not for the better. Josh had some issues with his drains which led to us finding out that the tumor was taking over and hospices was our only choice. His time left with us was down to weeks. Our lives were turned upside down. Josh was pretty miserable the last month, but tried to put on a good face for the kids. It was so hard for me to turn over the care of him to someone else and knowing that i couldn't make it better for him. We put on hold any plans of doing things other then just being a family. We had some family come to help out, i stopped working and focused on doctor's appointments, nurse visits, shuttling the kids around and learning about hospice life.
there has been so much since i last updated. I want to try to remember some of it, but since it's almost May, i know i will have forgotten.  I have a few separate post to make about big events like Bella's first Communion, family pictures, our trip to florida and our lives since Josh passed away.
Thank you to those who have bared with me..i haven't forgotten this blog.

So the Josh earned himself a three day hospital stay, we got a "blizzard" so i stayed up at the hospital with him while my mom held down the fort with the kids. it was Catholic schools week so bella had fun dressing up. Josh then spent what Good time he had with the kids, building things, playing games or watching movies.

Western day

Watching a movie together

Roller skating with my girl

Poms performace

Flowers from my sweet heart

Playdough fun

Day 2

Today I’m thankful that we moved closer to my family and friends, and really closer to some of Josh’s family too. Yesterday we were able to attend church and then the pancake breakfast at our school, before heading off to Whitewater to see Sara’s cheer team perform. Bella and I made it in to a girls day while the boys stayed at home and mostly napped  

We had a lot of fun and thankfully it wasn’t too crowded. Bella got to make Sara a sign and I got to take pictures. Bella also got a new bow  

We got home and the boys slowly woke up. Then it was off to the great outdoors. The kids got to play with the neighbor girls and I started to rake up our many leaves. I regret wishing for leaves when we lived on the farm. After an early supper we have a movie night with “hotel Transylvania “ The kids really enjoyed the movie.

If anyone wonders why I’m doing some cancer awareness:

Little did our family know that Josh would get this awful cancer and his uncle would die from it only months later, weeks after the doctors found it on him. Now I worry about my children even though there is currently no gene that my husband carries to explain all the cancer between his mom and dad’s families.